Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile.

one Ride Needs One

Kind of Courage in Life

-------ayesha

this weekends' specialty was Lotte world, a place full of interesting adventures.
finally it was a sunny bright Saturday morning, 9 30 we stepped toward the LOL world, the rest of day was spent in screaming and streaming...in the fresh air, surfing between life and death, above the Seoul city, sometimes dropping down from 70 meters high, tasting zero gravity, other times losing the ability to speak, dumbstruck by twisting in time and space, ruthlessly. if i had eaten anything in the morning, the shaking and swaying would have stirred my poor stomach upside down. yet still i lost my appetite for lunch and a little absent-minded for a while. thank god, priyam showed some mercy and we went inside the Lotte world and took some mild, soft, gentle, pacific rides like composing balloon ride, cool flume ride, the bumpy bumper car which we took 5 times.

in the end my adventurous riding day was ended perfectly by a LOVELY PANDA RIDING, made up for my imperfect childhood^^ but we missed the French Revolution,a pity but panda is better^^
On sunday, the world cup statium fulfilled our precious time. but the football reminded me of the shame of china football, yet i enjoyed the majesty building and the BIG CAR. in the mall, priyam bought a nice coat for the most beautiful mommy in the world. around 8 pm we went to the hot chicken and energy bar in yihua university. it was too spicy to finish the hot chicken and the zero fat cola almost bursted our belly. an indian girl said hello to the tantrum boy, which pleased him a lot in such a foreign country. ^^ if i meet a chinese in india, i would be moved to tears... my dear! how R u ?
I will remember this day.

It's a poor sort of memory that only works backward.

Happy Birthday tO You!
today one of my childhood wish came true. when i was a small girl, i counted my finger to expect birthdays coming, whose birthday did not matter, the important part was the cake. a big puzzle was always swirling in my mind, " why can not i eat birthday cake on a regular day?" even though when i grew up, into a big girl, i have the money to buy a birthday cake, yet it seemed to be stupid to eat a birthday cake on a plain day... i just wish i could eat a birthday cake on friday.
the wish was fulfilled today finally.
what can be more romantic than that?

You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough.

Tears of a Leaf
Summer night, weeping secretly in the darkness,
Searching for the stars in the sky through the window,
Winking,

The curtain is shattering in the night breeze
Tickling,

The tears shimmering in the pale moonlight,
Streaming,

Love as deep as ocean, in the darkness
A leaf ,
Holding thy hands,
Holding back thy tears,
A leaf,
Gone with wind, far , far , away
Swirling in the deep ocean,
A leaf,
On a bough, wet and black,
Hope, lovely laugh ~

We shall show mercy, but we shall not ask for it.

i had a free day and a wonderful dinner !
i do not know why i am over stuffying myself recently. too much food, too much pressure. every time after overeating, i feel so sorry for myself. i should stop this bad habit, which is not good for my poor stomach. i need to take care of myself from now on...
Ming dong is always bustling with people, all kinds of people, moving in the streets. in the restaurant we saw a couple who are really outmatching to each other. in my opinion, the girl is not bad, but the boy is so so intolerably bad looking. but the girl seemed to be very happy with him. even the waiter peeked at the ugly boy from time to time. i am afraid i am putting too much emphasis on the boy's bad looking, while, actually the most confusing part is why a normal girl found a ugly boy as a boyfriend? a normal girl can find a normal boy, is there male shortage in Korea or worldly shortage of boys? otherwise, the boy has some inner beauty which attracted the girl so much ? i should ponder on this problem for a while.
i received a calling from priyam's roommate, when priyam took video of my phone expressions secretly. and it came out very naturally... good shot!
around 11 pm we came back and i was dipping into the paper for tomorrow again. black Wednesday is sucking out all my happiness mercilessly. God bless me! please let me survive another week!

No problem can be solved from the same consciousness that created it.

Grand Park
at least we took elephant train ~
grand park is mainly composed of zoo and a rose garden. i never expected Korea has so many animals in their zoo, tigers, lions, but they do not have panda like china. our trip started from an elephant face train who took us to the Africa saiba , the earliest human like creatures- known as hominids-existed in Africa as long as three to four million years ago from one of the saiba. we saw many vivid status and carvings welcoming us. the giraffe came to our view first, long neck babies, the ones who eat grass. i think they r only used as silent lawn mower in this world.
then from the base of pyramid, we climbed up to the top through some lazy hippopotamus, deers,ostriches ,slim lions , tigers and cheetaz.we were planning to see the dolphins show, but we bought a wrong ticket, instead we went to the rose garden in the end of our trip by bus.
we missed the dolphin show, but we enjoyed the rose garden ^^

Under capitalism, man exploits man. Under communism, it's just the opposite. – John Kenneth Galbraith

The EZRA POUND Class is Full Of Ice Cream ghosts !
Until 2 55 pm i was preparing for the presentation about the American poet Ezra pound. in the class, MiSen bought ice cream for professor and classmates, because she also gives presentation about Ezra's life. the professor once leaked some information about his crush to ice cream, and the ice cream pleased the professor a lot, too happy to listen to what the presenter was talking about, but because he ate it too fast, the moment i went in front, he just finished the big box of ice cream and began to concentrate on the essay and did not forget to ask tough questions about the poems frequently and cheerfully -.- fortunately, he wanted us to go for some outdoor class, so as soon as i finished the presentation, we went out to a art gallery , 10 minutes driving from school. one of the classmates drove us to the spot, navigated by professor ahead. we arrived along the musical way. it is a spacious hall, laid by some pictures and objects with some special concepts, like "mother nature" ^^ and in the end, we chose one T shirt as a gift. after the gallery, our professor invited us for some coffee. but instead of coffee, i chose yogurt ice cream, which shocked them. they asked me why i chose ice cream again after i had ice cream in the classroom, i said because i like yogurt and i do not like coffee. surprisingly they were very satisfied with my answer. actually, i lied to them, i preferred yogurt before but not now. i could not find the right reasons for my choosing yoghurt's ice cream and lying to them that i like it. but why did i choose yoghurt's ice cream? it was weird in that weird coffee shop served by the weird grand mom. the little yard in front of the coffee shop was cultivated like a flower shop, all kinds of flowers were grown, which are beautiful but shady. the most strange part was when i went out of the small room, i saw a numb frozen face in another room. only one person was visible. i peeked at him, all of sudden , i was trembling with horror. i do not know why, the garden in front was so beautiful but when we were sitting inside, the faces seemed to be distorted... "ghost!" i shrieked and fainted, found myself lying in a white covered bed in a spacious room. it is another blank space. anything is there, but i can not see.

A wretched soul, bruised with adversity,We bid be quiet when we hear it cry; But were we burdened with like weight of pain,As much or more we should ourselves complain.
William Shakespeare

i survived another wednesday, which is another miracle seen from the moon. today i was walking in the sun, suddernly the sun was gone, all darkness. i was searching for the source of light until i began to enjoy the darkness itself. many dots glimer here and there, i passed through it lightly, but where is the people gone? i could not believe i am the only creature on this planet. the dot was spiraling forward to the end of the earth. chasing after it with my nudeness, my heart was beating so fast , i was worrying about the black box would be opened. it opened up , a beam of light shoot out from the box, brilliant splitting my brain into two pieces. cloven. melting and clattering, a shadow was out of the circle. the shadow is everywhere, riding on a butterfly. resting on the rose when tired. the other missing piece?

understaning today's world is important if we are to deal with our growing number of challenges.
and yet the understanding without history study, is incomplete. from today i will put some basic information about western civilization in my blog.
Today's civilization-------------Examine PreHistory and ObseRVe
The first humans: mesopotamia
The place: A city named URUK which is one of the first cities and part of the world's first civilization, located in southern iraq, which is called the ancient near east, also including egypt.
Deeds: western civilization can be traced back to the ancient near east, where people in mesopotamia and edgypt developed organized societies and created the ideas and institutions that we associate with civilization.
how human beings made the shift from hunting and gathering to agricultural communities and ultimately to cities and civilization.
Developments: the later greeks and romans who played such a crucial role in the development of western civilization, were themselves courished and influenced by these older societies in the near east.

"Even stones have a love, a love that seeks the ground". Meister Eckhart

We Love Cheese Chicken
holala is the place we went most frequently and the cheese chicken was our favorite.
it looks good and it tastes better. and the new waiter is really hospital and polite.
i think his modest and devotional attitude has attracted more customers than the food itself. ^^
after a hearty of cheese chicken, we went for some walk along the way to Korean university as usual. but today i was too tired to breathe evenly not knowing the reason, i dragged my heavy legs back dorm which led to some distributes. yet, end's well all is well. it is another peaceful , starry starry night~ looking out of the window, the mysterious darkness arouse my emotions to the peak...yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery,today is present, because it is a gift.
yet one star is so brilliant high in the sky, smiling like a super baby^^ aim at the stars, first i should land on the moon! i will land on the moon tonight and visit the brilliant star winking at me!

Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.

To be able to fill leisure intelligently is the last product of civilization, and at present very few people have reached this level. i filled it with cooking today. First step, i washed a bowl of rice and it was cooked with several chunks of pumpkin , which would become the main food for today. next , i washed some fresh green leafs, put them into some boiling water for 5 minutes until it gets half boiled, then i took them out and cool them in cold water, squeezing the leafs until the water was dried enough to cut them into tiny pieces. then it was time for heating the pane, put some oil and sprinkle some sliced pepper before the oil got too hot. the spicy stimulated my nose and eyes in a positive way, which arouse my appetite for food. then the leaf particles were thrown into the pane and i tossed for a while until it got fully fried and boiled. it took several minutes and in the end i put some spicy flavor sauce. the pumpkin rice also cooked well when the dish was done. undoubtedly i had a hearty lunch and i got relieved. i think it is the care that is the extra ingredient makes the dish tastes special. so life is. life can be more special when u care about something truthfully. looking out of the window, it was soft, rosy rain in the air of Seoul, a little dizzy~ so i took a nap until it grew darker. pryiam got back from the party and he walked me for my bile and heart problem^^

Innovation is not the product of logical thought, even though the final product is tied to a logical structure.

The Anniversary of Sichuan Earthquake
Last year of 12 th of May, the catasthophy struck sichuan, china. the earthquake was apalling. today i had indian dinner with some foreign friends. panner butter masala , dal makhani , tandoori chicken , aloo gobhi , chicken makhani and naan.

All great things are simple, and many can be expressed in single words: freedom, justice, honor, duty, mercy, hope.

Sir Winston ChurchillBritish politician (1874 - 1965)

Happy Mother's Day!
the second friday of May is mother's day and i called her for celebration. My mom was very happy to receive my call and i was happy that i was earlier than my brother. every mommy is great in the world, my mom is also very great! thank u for her giving birth to me on this earth.
this earth is such a nice ce to live, there was a "hiseoul festival" in the city hall , the central of seoul. "hiseoul " had been lasting for one week since last saturday. the strong pulsation struck blow for a harmounious, lovely, developed seoul accompanied by the seoul hotel plaza standing by.

it started from the 8 pm to 10 pm, composed of the musics and dancing on the stage and the spectators joining in.

Black Wednesday
i hate wednesday, it is too dark, no fun.

My Cousin's Wedding Day!
yesterday i attended my cousin's wedding day and also it was the first wedding i attended in Korea, which was pretty different from the Chinese wedding.
our family is not an original christian family, but i do not know since from when, many of my relatives become a christian, so does my cousin. the wedding was held in a simple chapel, which was 1 hour's way from my school. i woke up around 8:30 am, and in a casual wear, i rushed to the subway station. in the subway, i met an acquaintance who was also attending the wedding as a friend of my cousin, then we moved together to the "amen chapel^^" when we arrived there it was almost 11 am, the ceremony seemed to have begun for some time. at first i sat quietly as others did, but i lost patience before i knew it. then i sneaked out from the hall, and had some fresh air outside. the pray was too long and boring for me... ^^ in my marriage i should cut it off into a simple, short one, like"good luck to both of u" ^^
finally, the ceremony was finished and this new couple were shuffling out on the long, red blanket.

next came to the lunch part, which was my best part. yet the higher expectation, the hard drop. it was a plain buffet. nothing special... but my aunts and uncle kept putting a lot of meat on my bowl, which made me highlight. the wedding party was very soon finished, the bride and groom seemed to be very busy in taking care the visitors coming and going.
i chatted with my aunts and cousins, whom i had not seen for a long time. after that i came back to school for my essays.

Honest differences are often a healthy sign of progress.

i went to the embassy this early morning for my mom's visa issue.
i had cheese chicken in the evening.

6 poems undone...

The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity.
Francis Maitland Balfour

i made a supermistake ! yesterday was my father's big day! his birthday and i went out shopping with my roommate , obviously i forgot completely what was happenning until today my mom mailed me that i was heartless and selfish tantrum girl who even forgot daddy's birthday...

i was shocked by myself's forgetfulness and ignorance... i called home immediately after i read the email and my daddy answered the phone low voice, he said why i was not calling next year...

i apologized and made some excuses and soothed his broken heart with sugar words.... sweet words everyone likes...so did my daddy.

it is a fake bread! more expensive^^

today i went to my cousin's home and brought the medicine back for my bile gastritis. priyam accompanied me all the way and we also went to the gasan digital shopping mall. i got a very nice shirt from priyam as a gift! nice! we tried to get something for mothers' day for our mothers but failed... anway we had a great time and we went to ming dong for dinner which was the hot chicken fried rice.it was the second time we came to this place for dinner and it was always very butsling , too popular to get a seat, so we even waited for some time^^

we had a pleasant dinner and had to digest it by walking and walking.

around 10 pm we went back to our dormitory.

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it." - Aristotle

i remember last Saturday was a rainy day , and today is another gloomy Saturday,
i slept until 2 pm as an entertainment for Saturday, and i found out the more i sleep the more i am sleepy! and i had many strange dreams in my sleeping... oh my...
i was on the Internet until 6 pm hahie and i decided to go to yihua women's university for some shopping and hair curl and some fresh air.
we took 153 bus which directly carried us to destination after 1 hour. first we roamed around the shopping mall and had the delicious spicy chicken she did her hair curl which made me wait for 2 hours....
i did not only wait , actually i went down for some snacks and a lipstick for myself , i took some pictures to entertain myself sitting in the hair shop! she looked almost the same after the curl but she felt much better ...after every hair care she felt good ... which also made me happy for her.we came back around 10 30 to our snug.
the boys moved out today, i did not have time to say goodbye to them.... they r moving to some place nice . we girls are left here .

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. - Albert Einstein

those two days i was busy with my mid term paper about edgar allan poe and today i handed it to the professor in class this afternoon. it has been another drousy long week, an air of horror has been shading these days in the current popular "pig virus" it was reported there were more than 17 korean pig virus suspectors. we listened to the news everday and focused on the pig virus.
in spite of the pig, there was a party held in our campus for the foreign students and a special prize went for the "best foreign students" without me. after finished the afternoon class around 4: 30 pm , i went for my roomates in the party, finding out it was almost done, which meant i had to take care of my dinner as usual. i was not very pleased about this party, as i was not on the name list of "best foreign student" , which annoyed me a lot. who cares

i met my roommates there and took some pictures on our way back. ^^