It is sad to grow old but nice to ripen. - Brigitte Bardot

Haste Makes Waste!

i was exhausted from revisiting the immigration office for twice already. the thing just did not go smoothly ridiculously. from the beginning i was feeling very bad at this foreign id matter of my mommy, because all relatives around me, including my mommy herself got too nervous about it. they kept murmuring to me , afraid i would not take care of my mother? since i could get her to Korea, what is the big deal of a tiny Foreign ID card? Jesus , those days i got up very early in the morning and wasting my time in subway here and there. this morning again , i went to the immigration office , furiously i came back, for some document was not correct. but i once doubted on that document, my cousins misled me and i just forgot ... my god! my god! i was too tired to move and eyes were streaming like the Nile river. i furiously came back to dormitory and took a shower. feeling much better after shower, i took a rest on bed, listening to some musics , but feel noisy instead of any peace. my.... tantrum

If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live.

The Rain Finally Stops in The Night!
i went to school despite the big rain today in the afternoon, for the scholarship application form. it seemed the whole Seoul was flipped by the heavy rain and the hilarious wind. the wind was too strong to walk in, yet too weak to bring me to the school. my umbrella was reversed by the blow and i had to move heavily. in the end i arrived at school and i met zhanghen, when of my former roommate, she accompanied to the office and handed in the form. as none of us had breakfast nor lunch, we decided to head against the big wind to the law dinning hall for lunch. i like my old friends because they never change. she was as same as before, a pleasant listener. we talked a lot about our own life and we went back to my room for more conversation. she even took a nap when i was chatting with my mommy because she was coming tomorrow. i asked her to take some stuff for me, including two books and some clothes i missed a lot, and some raisins and Chinese snacks i like most. my mommy seemed to be very excited about coming here to visit me, maybe not me... anyway i am very happy to meet her tomorrow and she would stay at my uncle's home. but another good thing is i do not have to pick her up from the airport, because she is coming with another woman,whose sister would pick her up, and together with my mom, they would come to Seoul city together. and i would bring her from "delim " station. ^^
oh~ my mommy is coming...
today i found another good way to make the face smooth, the way is to drink hot water while doing some facial mask. it deserves a try and i invented this, top secret to moisture skin.

Never mistake motion for action.

I was Busy in Thinking Again Today...
today i woke up earlier than before as the boss said he would call me early. i went out to my workplace after a simple breakfast. it was cloudy those days, raining slightly. i like rainy days because there was no dust in the air. another same boring day was there waving at me. i knew what would happen today and everything went as i foretold. no fun at all. i was thinking about my mother's visiting korea, where should i take her and what should i feed her...my god my head was so stuffed that i was suffering from severe headache.

You lose it if you talk about it.

Monsoon Season
these days it was raining a lot. from the news i knew many place in Korea were drowned by the rainfall and it was considered to be an annual disaster for Korea due to the land structure. tonight i had planned to stay in room and watch some movies but hippo called me and asked me out for dinner. considering the long time separation with hippo as a ex-roommate, i decided to drag my heavy body to the hyehwa station. yet"the Murphy's law" was taking effect on me again. i was worrying about my going there alone as i had never been there alone before , so i was not familiar with that place especially by bus. anyway i took a bus to the direction but i got off at a wrong station which was one station before my destination. i was roaming there for several minutes until i called hippo and she told me i was a pig who got off at a wrong station. i was pissed off at her calling me a pig but giving another thought, i really agreed that i was pigger. finally i met hippo and her friend at hyhwa and we went to the Chinese restaurant before which one we less paid. we ate hotpot and barbecue. this time the boss did not make any mistake about the money. though i tried hard to distract him from calculating the payment, yet he was very alert this time ^^ we paid for it together and went back to my dormitory. we said goodbye sadly in the night. i passed by Korea university which looked very peacefully and charming in the rainy lamplight. the scene brought me back to my old days, when i was a queen, though now i am still^^ sorry i am the queen!

My doctor said I look like a million dollars - green and wrinkled.

today i went to the market since a week back. i was troubled by this potty, going to market and cooking for myself. it was boiling outside in the middle of the day when i chose to go out without any reason. i took an umbrella to protect myself from the ultraviolet rays and i thought it was of great use. i lingered to the market place not knowing what i should buy for lunch until i reached the vegetable shop, i randomly chose a green onion and a bundle of scallion. other vegetables like Brooklyn seemed to be dried away, so i did not buy it although i liked it a lot once upon a time. the course from my dorm to the market place was so familiar to me and filled with many good times in my life. the worst tantrum in the world once held me to the holala and we loved this course a lot, as we rarely went to the other direction to the back gate of kookmin university. time flies while i was creeping in the same spot like a headless fly... hitting here and there... swirling.

Play out the game, act well your part, and if the gods have blundered, we will not.

What a Labour Day !
today i went out for work around 4 pm. we went to some countryside where laid many orchards, restaurants and Live Cafes too. we hanged around the land for some time before it got too dark and we entered a folk restaurant. we had some bibimbub and it tasted awesome. after dinner we went into a live cafe for some musics as dessert. and the boss even bought some drinks for one of the singers on stage. and the singer came down to our table and had a nice talk with us. i kept speaking English because the boss told everyone in the beginning that i was an Korean American... so i had to speak English most of the time, even pretending to innocent of some Korean words. we enjoyed a lot there and as usual i was dropped off at my dorm gate around 11 30 . after i came back room i did a lot of hand washing. but one thing i could not understand is whatever, whenever i did something, the whole place would be ruined by me ... after i finished washing job, the washing room and the corridor were stained with waters and became very slippery. everything was in a mess when i did something ... headache...i think i am a real trouble maker.

I think that only daring speculation can lead us further and not accumulation of facts.

What a Busted Day ! it is only a part time job! come on!

I knew it would happen... tonight i went back dorm as late as usual around 11 40 pm and i had a strong feeling that Mr Li would be somewhere and waiting for me... the boss dropped me at the dorm gate as before and regardless of my worrying about the teacher would be there around dormitory, he insisted to accompany to the dorm gate. and it happened as i imagined. Mr Li was there in the middle of the ground of dormitory, which shocked me to death. i composed myself and introduced the boss to Mr Li ... and i went back room immediately. after that Mr Li called me and said he was just worrying about my safety issue nothing else. but actually i felt very bad , as he gave me a feeling of being monitored... my god... i am adult and old enough to do some parttime job, right? My god... WTF . i did nothing wrong but i do not want to be gossiped by others... especially MR LI! Because he is really a big mouth !

Money, like a queen, gives rank and beauty .

The Independence Day, July 4Th

In the afternoon , we went to some apartments for renting and meet some customers. I had dinner at the boss's home , out of my expectations. i thought he would take me to some restaurant while it was his mother who cooked and prepared a hearty dinner for us. honestly i did not like the food his mother cooked.... it tasted weird. but out of polite i finished the big bowl of rice , which was quite stuffy. after dinner we studied some English by listening to some English songs. he had electronic guitar, keyboard and drum as an amature. later his friends came to visit him and they decided to go to sing, but as i needed to be back dorm before 12 am, so they dropped me at my dormitory first and they went for singing. and they called me "Cinderella" for i had to be back before 12 am. it was around 11: 40 pm as usual and i saw Mr Li was standing at the dorm gate with my roommate, waiting for some student to carry some luggage for yanan as she was checking out for tomorrow's flight to china, Home. i said hello to Mr Li and he gave me a suspicious looking and seemed to be curious of my coming late. i just gossiped with him for a while before i came into room. the room looked like more spacious because two people's stuff was emptied now. i was not as close to yanan as to hippo, yet when it was time to say goodbye, a sudden sorrow flushed into my head till my heart and reached my eyes. but luckily, she would come back after 2 weeks and jihyon would come back from her boy friend's place soon.

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.

yesterday i travelled to 양평, a beautiful place where nature speaks and sings. we drove till the upper river of hangang, which was called 양평. in the whole driving course i could smell the fresh of pure nature. but one thing i did not like was the person who sat besides were keeping asking English sentences and words, which disturbed me a lot. although that is my job to translate Korean into English, i felt impatient sometimes. but for the sake of a good dinner, i forgave and forgot it. ^^ in the night we went into a famous live cafe where we enjoyed some sings sung by some famous singers in Korea. around 11 pm , the driver dropped me at my dormitory and i went back to my cozy room.
no job is easy ... i felt so tired after a whole day's travelling and interpreting. i am so tired ...but having a lot of fun^^