zone

out of my cozy zone, i got some unexpected surprise
one just likes to stay in his own comfortable zone. in my zone, i am the queen. Friday is free day! but i was feeling the end of the beginning of the free day when i said to visit a friend carelessly. i was thinking about staying in bed for the whole day like a lazy, lovely panda,eating some bamboos, but i had to get up and head for the friend who my subconscious hesitated . it is strange to act against ur thinking. so self judged by myself, i am a strange person in a strange zone. does the queen always want to control the situation? fortunately , it was not so bad as i imagined. we talked and laughed for the whole time until we had to say goodbye, when the sunset.
And the English publish surprised me after a period of gap. i received a call and told my article written was not bad but need cutting short and they required me to send photos separate from the articles. i never expected their response but it always happens and never happens when i was eager for something. so it is wiser to wait quietly instead of restless worrying about.
I treated myself with some vegetables and instant noodles. no sauce , only bland noodles and vegetables, for my blind stomach. sehua came back and she had the same food as mine, which was instant noodles but with some sauces like piper powder. we were going to spend the evening time like lovely pandas rolling in beds.
i was feeling that my life was like the noodles, no sauce at all.
SPORTS GAME and BARBEcue in THE EVENING for This Saturday!
i was looking forward to attending tomorrow's sports game. i was not a sportsman but a good cheerleader. my roommate zhanghen was competing on ping pong against Korea. she was a energetic and versatile girl who even could play ping pong! jihyan and i were thinking about some cheering words for zhanghen and i advised to call her name.
it was said there would be a big Barbecue party after the event, which was my favorite part. zhanghen was too excited to do anything but stay and imagine her championship, how glorious the medal would be! best wishes for her and a tight sleep for me!

lonely girl came back to the cozy zone again

Life and Time For the lonely girl !
i sold my sole to devil and lingered back desperately. day was broken but still remaining the dark nighters' breaths in the air above the vague and quiet city. the light and the mood was nearly resembling evening , especially for me who was so depressed to see time was passing impatiently and hastily. the chill was into my bone, and i shivered and threatened by the departure moment. personally and publically appreciated, i am a girl of sheer kindness, completely good nature and lovely simple inside and outside, always glad to welcome and sad to say goodbye. time and life was against each other.life was passing by with great times and bad times. no matter how desperately we want the good moment waited for the life itself. it was natural and hopelessly truth. while the truth was standing against the restless time forever.
i was seeing off my friend and went back dorm like a person in a dream, not quite aware of the minutes around me. a little awkward when passing by the keeper uncle, and again the fact approved the truth that when it could go wrong , it would. i was stopped by the uncle and it was a mistake done by the uncle. i was misrecognized by him as another person. relieving the tension and i walked inconfidently into my dormitory. as was known to me , my other roommates were keeping human habit of sleeping late. i was too carefull to breathe , while the truth was too much carefullness , too much loudness. all i could do was covering up my own pair of ears , closing my eyes and praying for the peace and quiet and not awakening their sound sleep. one of them moved slightly but began to snore again. it would be a long time before i could recover from the depature sadness, tearfully i threw myself into bed, tears were rolling down hopelessly , wettening my pillow and i could not believe i was such a affectionate animal. the lonely girl was sleeping in pillow drenched with salty tears and hoping to forget the heartbroken moments.
and the gift of forgetness to human being worked quite well on lonely girl. a forgetting sleep was followed with a free girl , busy preparing for the text in the afternoon class. still lonely yet free.
the school time was good for me , when i could study for at least 1 hour and 20 hours without eating or sleeping or chatting, which was definately the case when i was in my dorm.
after the last class of this week, i headed for my comfortable zone lightly heartedly.

Life must be understood backwards; but... it must be lived forward

celebration for the professor's absence by a pizzar party

There was nothing more cozy like studying abroad , for me, not a morning person. life was full of mystery and i was searching for the right path in this continuing maze. along the farmiliar road, across the path, up the stairs , i was depositing myself in the classroo, after a brief brunch with kimbob. life was showing us signs of some mishappens if u think it was a hint. i lost one of my tooth and i thougt it unlucky. did it really bring me misery? i was deep in thought while i was walking into the lift. i was so abosorbed in my lost tooth that i forgot to push the button of 9th floor which would be a normal mistake in daily times. but the normal things were thought as big trouble when there was already a sign of mishappens , like broken tooth. i was blaming myself and waggling out the lift on the 5th floor before it was going down on the first floor. there i changed into another lift upwards. i took it as the beginning of my bad luck. not knowing what would happen to my left times of this day, i walked into the classroom. everyone was talking and laughing , waiting for the professor's showing up. time was ticking , time was ticking, someone was ringing and it was professor who was calling to cancell today's class. a bluemoon must be hung on the starry night. there were someone happy while others complainning for the late information. i was always on the optimistic community and clapping hands cheerfully, thinking about going back to dormitory for merorising some french volcabulary.
the class was dismissed and a pizza party was thrown by one of them.
i was so glad to celebrate the unexpected breakoff for today , together with my classmates. the idea of bad luck was almost put behind of my mind until the last chicken swing which was my favorite was taken away by another classmate. oh, mishappens happened while my tooth was still broken and missing.

when i was yong, i was suffering from terrible toothache like most of the children experienced in their times. toothache was not a disease but it was killing. the most horrible thing for me was to visit dentist. my screaming and struggling against the dentist's scary injection was famous all around my hometown. i was a screamer.

but after the tooth was distracted, i always liked to lick the missing place with my tougne. though i have grown up and all of my baby teeth was changed into new ones and no distraction anymore, yet the feeling of licking the missing place was still fresh.



without you, i was feeling the missing teeth, empty and hollow inside.

A man admires a woman not for what she says, but what she listens to.

i was celebrating my new weekend by sleeping late on monday morning. as it was a celebration ,something must be different from others, a sleep late championship was awarded to me for special on this fresh monday morning. all my roommates had already been invisible when i was still in my dream.
the best way to realize ur dream is to wake up. i got up and would like to fulfill my potential.

if there is after life

i was awakened up by the call from my cousin in china this sunday morning. i must have heard impatient and annoyed to her , which i regret a lot. i got up after the call and washed up and tried to do some meaningfull things for myself on such a sunny clear sunday morning, but failed in my desperation. i did some study at first until i was too starving to think reasonably. sehua and i went upstairs and she cooked some soup and instant noodles for me, while i was standing by her and bringing her great pleasure by just standing there,LOL. in a winkling moment, a full pot of noodles and a full pot of soup were put on the table side by side and in a winkling moment, it was empty.
we had a very satisfying breakfast lunch. i was fully enjoying it.
the whole afternoon, my mind was spinning around and around ,which drove me to fall into sound sleep, maybe the graviation should be responsible for that.

I once spent a year in Philadelphia, I think it was on a Sunday

FLY TO THE MOON

If We Can Fly to The Moon

will we find the eyes that see
inside all human tragedy
will our minds learn how to hold
the sights and sounds that take control
will we find the answers near the reasons
and the ways to cope
will we find the steps to walk
toward a path of hope will we join our praying hands
still struggling to understand
will our minds create a place
that celebrates the human race
will we lift our voices clear
transcending all our deepest fears
will we move beyond them all
to live our visions here
will we find our innocence
inside the pain of past events
will our minds learn how to solve
the problems as our world evolves
will we find the beauty of
the rising and the setting sun
will we count our blessings for
this new life just begun if we can fly to the moon
if we can cry when life is cruel
if we can carry, carry on
then every light will survive
and every heart will soar and rise
upon the future
of all that we love

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love

"The more you judge, the less you love". Honore de Balzac

my saturday was wasted by the whole day sleeping!
we were sleeping together until 3 pm this saturday. i could not believe that i was such a sleeping beauty. i was feeling so empty in my heart when i woke up after the whole day's sleeping. the hollow in heart should be filled with something interesting and meaningful. so i seduced sehua to go for some fresh air , who was trying to concentrate on studying. i won and we went to the small market. i was actually preparing for the dinner, what should we have for supper? i thought i needed some vegetables and fruits. magically, it happened that i was carrying a log of different kinds of vegetables! money was good, i drew a conclusion at the end of this day.
we came back to dormitory cheerfully, almost forgot the blindness in our life. we cooked some rice and had a really fruitful dinner together.