A stumble may prevent a fall

it was spring weather when i went out for school. i am not sure whether it was abnormal for November temperature. on the other hand, i am sure it is abnormal, for the trees, grass and flowers are still bare regardless of the fake good weather. it is fake. but the nature would not be deceived by it. maybe it is the effect of global warming, or the broken ozen layer, anyway , girls were enjoying the pleasant warmth and wearing thin. i have been wanting to have a boots but still stumbling for the high price or the low quality. i am seeking 2 in 1, lowest price with highest quality and highly possibility if the manager fell in love with u. LOL
in the class we were still nibbling the LAND ETHIC, it was a good paper material for me to follow. during the class, the professor called my name and i was shocked by the sudden questioning, because i was absent minded at the moment and lost minded. i was thinking about a hot chocolate after class. ^-^
i did have many boxes of hot chocolate after school and it was especially delicious when heated. i was feeling energy through my whole body. and i think hot chocolate could help resisting against cold.

Let the others make statues of Apollo and Mercury and Hercules... You're the man I want to chisel

The Final Paper in Mind all the Time, While Trivial on Hand in Company.

with last week's dry cold days, at the end of the week, Saturday turned out to be mild. while like the weather in winter, some one's heart was turning from frozen to furiously mad , hot enough to melt the whole north pole. she was called out by ex boyfriend, who hurt her deeply and didn't contact her for 2 weeks. today he showed up and forced her lunch with him. a frozen heart was hard enough to detect against any sweet words. she was fed beef, but still a frozen heart to treat him. no matter how deeply she had been in love with him, the fact was cruel as the reality. as usual, the wrong beginning ended up with tragedy. game was over for them.
congratulations to sehua, being single and free to torture other thousands of men instead of this pitiful one.
i love killing times with delicious food and touching music, and i was glad to know it was not as hard as dating, i enjoyed my Saturday life all by myself . i was planning to set on hand with my papers this week and the final exam.

the prison

the lovely donkey

ihave fond memory of today, it was the best saddest friday of my life.
i got up before the alarm , cheerfully imagining the nearest exciting future. the sun was rising above the window and the sky was so high and blue with no cloud. looking into mirror i found the pretty makeup on my face was shinning , moitured by the sweat later, or maybe tears. sehua and i rushed to the appointed place which was the front gate of school. we were the first ones arriving there , finding no one at that time until 10 minutes later, coming one by one. feeling a little stupid for keeping the time to rush so out of breath, while others were just rambling along the morning fresh air. teacher came later and checked everyone in the namelist. i knew i was not on the list because i did not bother to apply for it. but i just like to change my mind . i chose to make their lives wonderful and come.

the teacher was showing more worried than surprised . as there may be no extra seat for the unapplied ones. but later the problem was to be sharpened by dropping me off the place where i was standing. it was not a bus, it was only a small van, hardly could take 10 people at most. the stubborn driver almost drove me mad and i was just left over all alone cruelly by the bastards. full of tears and hopelessly, i went away , trying not to look in the direction the van disappeared. but it was not the end of my expecting trip for today. one of the man in the van came out from the van and told me he would take me to the place by subway. the flame hope in my heart was fired up again, furiously. i said ok and we moved to the direction of MINSOK VILLIAGE. the pleasant chat made me cheerup again and before long we had been the place before the van arrived.
it was a village characteritic of ancient korea folk buildings including folk house and royal house, court, market, toilet, studying room and even prison. we met and i was more welcome than ever before. anyway i was cherishing this almost unreachable chance than anyone else and enjoy the mood than anyone else. it was lunch time when we arrived there so as planned, we went into a folk resturant and our teacher ordered traditional korean DOLSOD rice , which was also my taste.
we took a lot of pictures along the sites and i was feeling my grandmother's home long time ago. it resembled my grandmom's village. i could see her moving around the straw houses, when i was a little girl, passing every vacation at her home. i missed her a lot.
we also watched several impressive performances. the thundering applaud at the amazing shows covered over the low temperature and the cold wind , thus the weather did not affect our mood for enjoying for the whole afternnon.
our leader wrapped up the activity perfectly by buying us warm noodles before we set back for school. though it was a little earlier for supper but everyone just ate up every drop in the bowl.
after an hour and half , we finally went back to school and everyone was presented with a gift. it was towel, which was also in time for replacing my old one.
i think the tears at last turned into sweet smiles.

To love is to admire with the heart

i was feeling terrible with my stomach this morning when i woke up and if not overfed it should owe to the bad wether. our little room was still in the shadow of night, refusing to light up and so were we. zhanghen was off her semaster for 20 days break and we were in bed until 11 :30am, and i was so proud of being the first one get up in the morning. the early bird should be me and it is me who deserve the bird.

but the early bird skipped the class today , maybe because of the bad weather and thus my bad health, i was quite moody. the whole day i just had one apple and a cup of coffee. i went for the hospial for getting the health certification. my time clocked back to last friday when i went to the hospital twice one day. today, it cost me 1hour to go and come back to my room.

it was the mix of rain and snow, it could not wait to melt before landing on the soft soil and caressing my face gently, leaving me shy in the amphibolous air. i was breathlessly when my heart was beating fast. i was feeling the natureman. i am the rib from the natureman . he wants to hold me and take me and kiss me. i love him.

tomorrow we are going to suwen for visiting the folk museum for free. the bad news is that we must get up early enough to catch the 8 50 bus. i think i could make it , though it would be really hard to get out of the cozy zone. it deserves the less sleeping to go there? ayway i should take earlier bed tonight ...

i love venus and cupid than anything else
Thousands of ideas were flushing into my mind after being stuck in my subconscious, dream. everyday i was having the same food same talks and dealing with same people, which i was feeling great stress. i was having xinlamian for its hot soup helping me maintain the body temperature . in the hall there was voting activities which barely drew my attention, only bothered me somehow by the handsome boys' patient repeating words to anyone passing by. i just passed away those boring things which seemed to be commercial or religion persuaders.
the moment i went into the classroom, one of my classmates was saying there was a newspaper and my artical was published there. it was like last century that i presented them my writing. today, it came out and i was so happy with my little prize here in korea. but the most thing i cared about was the payment for the contribution of the article.
but the excitement did not go too long. my roommate did not seem quite happy with it. i do not know the reason but the situation was paiful. i could deal with love problems very skillfully but not in friendship. i do not believe in friendship, i believe in something but not friendship, which was like fake.
i am only close with few of my ancient childhood friends , the friends of presence was unworthy and boring, which would never last long. i wish i were alone forever only with my love.is there a planet for friendship in horoscope? like venus is for love, cupid is for love.

You can't say that civilization don't advance, however, for in every war they kill you in a new way.

A BIG DAY 4 SWEEPING OUT the ones who FORGOT SEHUA'S BIRTHDAY!

I had a report for the drama class in the afternoon. the drama was "yankee dawg you die", which i never had time to finish reading completely. but i had to present the report. in spite of my unwillingness to get up out of my cozy warm, where i had been wrapped up whole night like a worm--------------a baby fly^0^. life need to be lived forward. after copying the report yesterday night hastely into usb so that i could print it out in school. the moment waking up in the morning symptoms in your body scientifically manifest the potential disease , which in my case, were shown in stomach and it was intensified when i overstuffed my belly the last night. an apple a day keeps the disease away. i always had an apple as breakfast. after a brief shower and a simple makeup, then i headed for the school, rolling my two already sour legs. it was resembling the winter in china , Korea where i imagined as warm winter. i was wearing thick against the bitterly cold winter wind. i think the position in our school was just in the gut of the wind so colder than in the city. i am in the outskirt of Seoul.

my hands were were numb to move any fingers to work on the keypad. clumsily, i printed the papers out and nailed them into 5 shares for distributing to my other classmates and professor. the hall was alive with students, and thinking about an apple for the class was too beyond enough so i got a "fist rice ball" and a cup instant noodles. seated, ate and read through the papers i cut from Internet randomly and put together illogically. anyway , a Hasty lunch and a hasty class. the earlier part of the class was proceeding with the left of last week"M butterfly". the professor kept asking us a question of message carried in the drama, which i took as a ordinary western married man , who was having love affair with a Chinese fake woman, who was actually a gay and pretended to be a woman, with whom the stupid western man was cheated for 20 years. In one word, the clever love, the stupid desire. oriental ism.

the class was ended with my barely finishing reading my paper. a relief, long breath , i was feeling like a huge burden taken off my weary shoulder.

the rest of my day was living for the big day of sehua, because today in 22 years ago, sehua broke out of her mom's womb and cried out into this crazy world.
they said on birthday , we should call our mom for her labor pain, but i do not agree with this point. mom bear ed us for 10 months and squeezed us out painfully. it was one of the greatest punishment from god for Eve's tasting the forbid en fruit. but the moment the baby was out, they were going to be tortured through the life for the original sin. what is Original sin? am i suffering from it? i could not choose the day i came into birth, but i would choose the day i die at my birthday so there was meet with my first day and last on earth.

we bought a birthday cake for sehua and some fresh vegetables and meat for siabe siabe, as the birthday feast. it was cold outside but for our friend, we were buying things enthusiastically. when we came back room with everything ready, sehua was waiting for us eagerly and cheerfully. she was too happy to close her mouth and we began to cook our dinner immediately. siabsiab was easy to prepare and delicious to eat. all that we need to do was to wash everything and put water into the container with special Chinese sauce and link the electricity.
before long, it was time to put things together into the bubbling water. it was a rich dinner and we were entertaining from eating tasty food and chatting and amusing each other. it lasted from 7 pm to 10 pm and the continuous laughter even attracted other friends over our room.

sehua had a wish for several seconds .....best wishes for her and hope to see her wish come true soon.

no one called her except her sister. she had boyfriends but it was important to know the time sweeping them out , it would be today, her birthday.

Obama, McCain Vow to Work Together
CHICAGO (Nov. 17) - No longer foes but not yet allies, President-elect Barack Obama and John McCain buried their bitter campaign in public smiles and searched for common ground in private on Monday, discussing possible collaboration on climate change, immigration, Guantanamo Bay and more.
The 40-minute session at Obama's transition headquarters, their first meeting since Nov. 4 when Obama handily defeated McCain, was just the latest effort by the president-elect to heal wounds from the long and bitter campaign and seek help from his former rivals. On Thursday, he quietly met here with Sen. Hillary Rodham Clinton, his toughest rival for the Democratic nomination and now a possible choice for secretary of state.
McCain's meeting with Obama was less furtive, and aides to both men said no Cabinet post is envisioned for the Arizona senator. Obama has said he plans to invite at least one Republican to join his Cabinet.
Like Clinton, McCain knows that returning to the 100-member Senate will impose limits and frustrations after the heady two years of the presidential campaign. For both, a friendly relationship with the new president might open new opportunities in Congress or elsewhere, though they exchanged harsh words with him not long ago.
For Obama, cordial ties to two of the nation's most famous and successful politicians might smooth the launch of an administration confronting an economic crisis and two wars.
Before Monday's meeting, Obama said he and McCain would talk about "how we can do some work together to fix up the country." He thanked McCain "for the outstanding service he's already rendered."
In a joint statement after the meeting, they vowed to work together to reform government and promote bipartisanship in Washington.
Meanwhile, Clinton, who returns to Congress as a fairly junior senator with no immediate prospects for a leadership post, appeared very much in the running for secretary of state. Transition officials said she and her husband, former President Bill Clinton, were cooperating with a vetting process, although there were other contenders for the job.
Bill Clinton's finances and business relationships could pose a conflict of interest for his wife if she became the nation's top diplomat. Since leaving the White House in 2001, he has amassed a multimillion-dollar fortune and built a large international foundation through his ties to corporations and foreign governments.
As for Obama and McCain, they expressed similar views on a number of issues during the campaign, such as the dangers of climate change and a need to ease U.S. dependence on fossil fuels.

Let the others make statues of Apollo and Mercury and Hercules... You're the man I want to chisel

An uneventful day! we were peeking the nature taking bath!

in my hometown the snow was coating the land with white silk, Seoul , it was raining outside when i woke up in the afternoon. it must have began to rain since last night, i really appreciated its silence. before doing anything , i started my day with typing keypad. because i had a preference of a paper translated for my friend and he would pay for it. the deadline was tomorrow evening but i just loved to have it completed in a time so that i was not nailed on this matter too long to do any other more interesting things. i was meaning to do it and i made it happen before sunset. feeling the burden was finally off my tiring shoulder, sehua and i agreed to hang out for some delicious food as the last dinner of today. the air was so chilly and fresh , when hailing in one breath of the clean air, i felt my head was cleared. the oxygen was so fresh and when digested by my body, i was energetic again after such a long time's stuck in the little hole. i intended to buy the most tasty bread in the world not far away ,but to my great sadness, it was all sold out or not made for today. maybe because tomorrow was Sunday, most Korean people would go to the church with the shops shut up. this is one of the main differences between china and Korea as far as i perceived. in china, except some big festivals, they never gave up one more day of making profits. instead of bread , i grabbed a strawberry jam for fun. i just wanted to eat it without any breathing. the long lines of cars in both sides were moving steadily and slowly in the gentle rain. whenever it was raining, i took it as the city was taking a natural bath, washing off the dust and dirtoff. the colorful umbrellas by the passers were decorating and under each umbrella , there was a moving soul, if there was two, they must be connected closely.