I wish I had an answer to that question, because I'm tired of answering that question.

i woke up as late as usual, coughing and my nose running, but headache was relieved a little. shower, shirt, shoes, all dressed up, i headed for the classroom 2 hours ahead of the class time. why? for a friend wanted to learn chinese from me and this schedule had been put off for several weeks since she was too busy. she talked with me about this chinese study 1 month ago, and almost every monday i came to school 2 hours earlier before the class began,but the plan was ruined until this monday. she did not appear until my afternoon class began, and when she finally came, she was not aware of my being there for her."u are not here for me , right? "said she naively, which made me quite dumstruck, wordless... i merely said "no, i am just reading here and waiting for the afternoon class starts" i am beginning to understand more about korean people. they have no credit at all, she thought i liked to wait for her? i am so annoyed by her impoliteness towards me.
after the noon class,i met sehua in the elevator, she seemed to be very upset and gloomy and starving, because she had a very unpleasant party with her friends in Anshan yesterday and the bad mood continued , she was suffering from the humiliation from an old ugly poor dirty man who she trusted as a good friend, lying to others that sehua was his girlfriend. sehua was furious when she got back yesterday and complained how disgusting the man was. i guess the man must be very lame taste, ugly and poor. that explains why sehua was so angry at his rumor. personally, i think love has no boundry, age is no problem, single or not is no problem, but poverty is the problem, when misery comes cupid flies away from the window! and a man should be lovely and never ugly! i love smart mature rich man.every girl does.girls just like funds!LOL so sehua decided to skip the evening class because she was not in the mood.

we went for the nearest market around our dorm as soon as we put our books in our room. we were so happy together hanging around and doing a little shopping, sehua was a cute girl, but was an unlucky dog today. we went into a cosmetic shop for she wanted to buy an eyecream, but the one she wanted was sold out, which meant she must come another day before more wrinkles appear around her small eyes.haha, winnie the pooh also needs eyecream?

on our way back, sehua dropped by the fashion shop which was run by the handsome man who looked like her college teacher she once in love. we said hello to the man and stayed there for a pleasant conversation. i think he is attractive enough to charm yong silly girls. from the conversation we knew that he was married and his wife was pregnant for 4 months,how dissappointing it was! hehe, sehua bought a miniskirt at the end and the man served each of us a cup of hot chocolate, which was really good.
we went back to our little dormitory and chatting about the man for a long time. sehua was not as sad as in the afternoon, and i was happy to make my friends happy.

i am going to do some reading and have a tight sleep.

I'm always relieved when someone is delivering a eulogy and I realize I'm listening to it.

it was a busy sunday for my roommates except me. i got up early this morning reluctantly , seeing off my roommates out for date one by one. the first one was jihyan, who had a quarrel with her boyfriend far away from seoul in gunsan, which was 4 hours train from here. she wanted to give her baby a unexpected visit and give him a big surprise. she was very considerate and careful girl who could buy a set of quilt for her boy as the winter was nearing. sizzle or fizzle? i hope she could have a good weekend with her boy.
next came sehua, our little POOH, who was about going for AnShan, which was also a lot far away from here. she was meeting some friends from home. Anshan was famous for illegal foreigners and chinese food. she was expected to buy some melon seeds for us and good luck for her too. i did nothing for this sunday, those past weekends have been very busy but now i could take a rest. i did some reading first then chatting with friends on the internet. they were in china now and missing me a lot. i missed them too. the good times and bad times spent together left the most precious pictures in our memories. i did have a total free weekends , no dates , no food , only napping. in the evening , i saw off another roommate, zhanghen who was on diet now. she had not have regular food for two days, but some apples, eggs and cucumber. she was planning to lose some weight by being on diet and weighed more than 5 times per day. and she found out she had lost 2kg. she was drooping when we were having food , but her strong mind for being slim controlled her hands from taking food into her watery mouth. i know she would rebound before long.LOL also a wonderful time for her in her diet period. could she desisted the delicious food tonight? diet or riot?

i am alone in my room , later i am going to watch some movies and waiting for sehua 's return by the melon seeds. i am enjoying their coming and going. because i do not have to go anywhere for fun. i have fun by myself!

barbie and the diamond castle

"True understanding is deeper in meaning than mere words, and is important for its result, not petty rhetoric. Those who can verbalize their happiness have little happiness to speak of. My love has grown so much that I can't tell even half of it in words".
sehua went for class even though it was saturday, because her professor was making up the missing class for friday. i had a severe headache since yesterday night and i thought i was having a fever. i knew when sehua got up and went out. but could not get up from my illness. after some ridiculous dreams i woke up and it was already 1 pm. having some food and milk , i opened computer and tried to find some interesting new movies and i caught a cartoon named"barbie and the diamond castle". i liked the movie a lot. it went like this.

barbie and teresa were playing guitar together, at this time stacie came into the room and it seemed she had a fight with Courtney. then the movie turned up by the story about best friends.

Alexa and Liana were best friends . they lived in a world with good and bad magic, flying serpents and a diamond castle. one day they had a terrible fight, that's what put them in danger. it started with music.so rare to find a friend like you, somehow when you are around , the sky is blue, the way we talk , the things you say, the way you make it , all ok, and how you know all of my jokes, but you laugh anyway. if i could wish for one thing, i will take the smile that u bring, whereever u go in this world, i will come along , together we dream , the same dream, forever i am here for u , u r here for me , two voices one song.
in a river , this two girls found two piece of stones in the shape of heart,which were the diamonds fallen off from the diamond castle. whenever there is new song sung anywhere in the world , there will be one more diamond appeared on the wall of diamond castle. in the castle , there were three muses , who played music together and took care of the castle. but one day the lydia, who was one of the muses got furious, because she wanted to do solo instead of chorus and she wanted to get the diamond castle all by herself. when she furiously shut the door off and went away, two diamons fell off from the wall to a river and found by a pair of best friends. they did not know it was magic but they believed in magic. perfect hearts for this two friends and the heart shaped stones were made into two beautiful necklaces, which became the symbol of their friendship forever.
they wished to have sufficient food and house and beautiful clothes . but they had a sympathetic hearts and never hesitate share with others. one day they met a starving woman and they gave their lunch food to her. the woman was so grateful that let liana chose a present from her basket. she chose a very shabby mirror out of politeness. the woman did not know what she had. Melody, a muse apprentice was hidding in the mirror. diamond castle was the birth place of music and Melody lived there with Dorie, Phaedra and Lydia. when Lydia went away to a ancient cave full of magic and transformed her flute into an instrument of dark magic to spread her darkness everywhere, the muses hid the castle and gave the key to Melody. As she was chased by the flying serpent of Lydia, she saw a mirror and hid herself in the mirror. after a long time passed, this mirror went to the Liana and Alexa and they miracally found the trapped lady in the mirror. love for song tied the three friends closely together. Lydia , the dark power could win all by destroying the muses' instruments, by which time the whole world would be nothing but shadows and sorrow. otherwise, the muses could break the spell by playing their instruments together. so this three girls set off for the diamond castle in the seven stones. they stayed strong together and believed some day soon they would find the diamond castle. on their way to castle , they met tow cute friends,who aided them to find their way. they went together and came to a valley, which led to the destiny, but no bridge for them to take. suddenly, a strange man appeared and let them answer a riddl, then they could cross over. the riddle was about an instrument which could not be touched or seen but heard. timing was everything, at the crisis moment, they answered the right answer which was voice. magically, a bridge appeared and sent the two girls across. but the boys were left behind and they made a promise to meet at the seven stones. even in the magic world, there were temptings everywhere. they crossed the valley and came across a very beautiful mension. they were so hungry that they wanted to have some food there. as they knocked at the door , a couple opened and welcomed them warmly as if this two girls had been expected for a long time and the couple's eyes were shining with green light. but this two girls were not aware of it. they were treated with a big feast. sometimes friendship was overrated in front of delicious food and big accomadation. Alexa refused to go any further for the salvation of the world. she would rather stay in this mension than adventure for the diamon castle. but Liana was not tempted away.
she insisted to go for the castle as they promised to Melody in the first place. and we could see the whole thing was Lydia's trick. Liana left the mension for her goal with the mirror in hands, while Alexa was arrested by Lydia very soon. the mension and the couples were all under Lydia's power and the poor Alexa was under contol too as she threw away the guardian stone which could protect her from being mesmerized. fortunatley her faithful dog,
lily picked it up, which could save her later. Lydia and her flying serpent found Liana with the mirror and threatened them with Alexa , who was under her power. she took the mirror at last and let the flying serpent wiped this two girls into the melting pot. they thought these two girls were melting but they were saved by a branch of tree and finally reached the diamond castle. as they approached the intruments laid in the castle, Lydia appeared and stopped them. Lydia tried to mesmerized them again but failed. Liana had already held the instruments and playing against Lydia's dark instrument. after a serious fight of righteous against the wick power, the girls won at last. and Melody proved her worth and replaced the Lydia to become a muse. although the muses wanted them to stay in the diamond castle,
Liana and Alexa hoped to go back their old home. it is a happy ending.

i am not a complete idiot, but some parts are missing

i selpt away most of my times.the missing part made my life wiser.
my roommate sehua went for shopping for hitting on a man. he is the manager of a clotheshop.
sehua said he looked like her college korean teacher who she fell in love with. but he got married with another woman. when sehua came back , she told me about the man's resume. he was handsome, single, smart and rich. oh , what a seducer she was. and the man gave her a jacket for free. maybe next time she would hunt for his cellphone no. and go out with him. girls just wants to have funds. this is se hua, i thought she looked like a cartoon character, winne pooh , cute girl.


the pimple girl in my room was fixing herself on the mirror whole day, drawing on her uneven face





i was just sleeping .........wondering what was wrong with me.

hope is a waking dream

in this season, our campus is decorated with red and yellow all over. and i do not know why they are watering the lawn in front our dormitory.it is a confusing season for me.
i was a little sick those days so i would skip the class for today , i tortured in bed but at the last moment i got up and headed for the classroom. the class is always boring except when the teacher is absent. when the sun was going down, i dragged my legs toward my dormitory again. the road led to my dorm was strended with fallen leaves. when i went back dorm, my roommates were planning to go buffet and shopping tonight, i said goodbye to them and wish them have a good night. i was always the one who liked to go eating and shopping the best, but today was an exception.
i hope everything would be turning out right for me, because i know i still have a lot undone.
i was with my doll in my bed, its name is barney. i love it and always play with my barney in my room. my roommate sehua has a doll too and it is a seadog.
so today i took this good chance to make my barney to take revenge on the seadog, as in daily times it treated my barney badly, so was i. i am always like a cinderella in my dormitory while others like the mean step sisters. so when cat is away , mouse becomes the king.
my barney is riding the seadog and the seadog is serving at my barney like a humble servant.
i was having a wonderful time with my barney and before i knew i fell into sleep.
i do not know how long i had slept until woken up by the sound of their chirping. they did a good shopping. zhanghen, who has pimple problem bought lots of makeups for covering the pimples.
there is no ugly woman but lazy woman. after some covers she did look better and prettier. she was very excited and i could understand her for my remembering my first time makeup , how happy i was.
we talked about cosmetics until very late then we were typing the keyboard as usual nights.

news

night club

i was chatting with my friend in my bed , i liked to put my computer in this way so the space between i and sehua's place would be larger. my dormitory is very snug.

my sleeping time was delayed a lot since i came to korea. when i was in china i barely went to bed after 11oclock even in the college dormitory. but now it seemed the daylight time was too short to do work thus we must stay up until very late. honestly, we got up in the afternoon everyday so that explains our night club.

after class in the afternoon i usually do some reading for an hour until it is dark outside, then i spent the whole night on the internet. my other roommate also spent a large mount of time surfing on the internet and they are addicted to internet shopping recently. they ordered some clothes from the internet, but personally i would rather go shopping in the street.

zhanghen likes eating a lot, she was still eating the rest of the popcorn deep in the night, and zhihyen was shopping in the internet 1 am. i captured some pictures of them which showed their daily routine.


i will read the wind in the willow before i go to bed to help me fall into sleep.