School

Have you ever been so weak when you wake up in the morning?

This morning i woke up around 9: 30 and dragged myself to school. i felt very weasy. i handed my thesis to professor Kim soyan . i should give it to Pro. Yi yinku but he is not at school. he is the only hope that can help me through at the last moment.
God Bless me.

Suffocating

Have you ever cried alone in the night because of the darkness?

There is no more space for anything in my head besides the Blues... my Thesis topic. I never expected i would suffer so much mentally in korea. i wish i had never been here. Although next week is the festival week, it can not be more oppressive for me. Those days whenever i saw the christmas tree, my heart beats too fast. i am nervous. i am afraid. i fear. i struggle.
it has been a long time since i wrote on my blog. it was almost deserted till this moment. this moment is very dark. it is midnight. i can not fall into sleep. i fear tomorrow will be the same as today no improve... life is so long for me...
i wish i could die peacefully forever...
also i fear the life after death, the unknown world makes me feel more upset.
tears in the night, alone