Fairy-in-Us: Suffocating

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Suffocating

Have you ever cried alone in the night because of the darkness?

There is no more space for anything in my head besides the Blues... my Thesis topic. I never expected i would suffer so much mentally in korea. i wish i had never been here. Although next week is the festival week, it can not be more oppressive for me. Those days whenever i saw the christmas tree, my heart beats too fast. i am nervous. i am afraid. i fear. i struggle.
it has been a long time since i wrote on my blog. it was almost deserted till this moment. this moment is very dark. it is midnight. i can not fall into sleep. i fear tomorrow will be the same as today no improve... life is so long for me...
i wish i could die peacefully forever...
also i fear the life after death, the unknown world makes me feel more upset.
tears in the night, alone

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Chinese

1、知我者，谓我心忧，不知我者，谓我何求。（诗经王风黍离）　　2、人而无仪，不死何为。（诗经风相鼠）　　3、言者无罪，闻者足戒。（诗经大序）　　4、他山之石，可以攻玉。（诗经小雅鹤鸣）　　5、投我以桃，报之以李。（诗经大雅抑）　　6、天作孽，犹可违，自作孽，不可活。（尚书）　　7、满招损，谦受益。（尚书大禹谟）　　8、从善如登，从恶如崩。（国语）　　9、多行不义必自毙。（左传）　　10、居安思危，思则有备，有备无患。（左传）　　11、人非圣贤，孰能无过？过而能改，善莫大焉。（左传）　　12、知人者智，自知者明。（老子）　　13、信言不美，美言不信。（老子）　　14、祸兮福之所倚，福兮祸之所伏。（老子）　　15、合抱之木，生于毫末；九层之台，起于累土；千里之行，始于足下。（老子）　　16、敏而好学，不耻下问。（论语公冶长）　　17、己所不欲，勿施于人。（论语颜渊）　　18、工欲善其事，必先利其器。（论语卫灵公）　　19、君子坦荡荡，小人长戚戚。（论语述而）　20、岁寒，然后知松柏之后凋也。（论语子罕）　　21、学而不思则罔，思而不学则殆。（论语为政）　22、知者不惑，仁者不忧，勇者不惧。（论语子罕）　23、人谁无过？过而能改，善莫大焉。（论语）　　24、知之为知之，不知为不知，是知也。（论语为政）　　25、知之者不如好之者，好之者不如乐之者。（论语雍也）　　26、其身正，不令而行；其身不正，虽令不从。（论语子路）　　27、三人行，必有我师焉：择其善而从之，其不善者而改之。（论语述而）　　28、大道之行，天下为公。（礼记礼运）　　29、凡事预则立，不预则废。（礼记中庸）　　30、学然后知不足，教然后知困。（礼记学记）　　31、玉不琢，不成器；人不学，不知道。（礼记学记）　　32、路漫漫其修远兮，吾将上下而求索。（屈原离骚）　　33、尺有所短，寸有所长。（楚辞卜居）　　34、尽信书，不如无书。（孟子尽心下）　　35、生于忧患，死于安乐。（孟子告子下）　　36、得道多助，失道寡助。（孟子公孙丑）　　37、民为贵，社稷次之，君为轻。（孟子尽心上）　　38、穷则独善其身，达则兼济天下。（孟子尽心上）　　39、天时不如地利，地利不如人和。（孟子公孙丑）　　40、富贵不能淫，贫贱不能移，威武不能屈。（孟子滕文公）　　41、锲而不舍，金石可镂。（荀子劝学）　　42、吾生也有涯，而知也无涯。（庄子养生主）　　43、君子之交淡如水，小人之交甘若醴。（庄子）　　44、博学之，审问之，慎思之，明辨之，笃行之。（中庸）　　45、临渊羡鱼，不如退而结网。（淮南子说林训）　　46、风萧萧兮易水寒，壮士一去兮不复还。（战国策荆轲刺秦王）　　47、桃李不言，下自成蹊。（史记李将军传）　　48、燕雀安知鸿鹄之志哉。（史记陈涉世家）　　49、运筹帷幄之中，决胜千里之外。（史记高祖本纪）　　50、忠言逆耳利于行，良药苦口利于病。（史记留侯世家）　　51、人固有一死，或重于泰山，或轻于鸿毛。（史记报任少卿书）　　52、智者千虑，必有一失；愚者千虑，必有一得。（史记淮阴侯列传）　　53、绳锯木断，水滴石穿。（汉书枚乘传）　　54、若要人不知，除非己莫为。（汉枚乘上书谏吴王）　　55、少壮不努力，老大徒伤悲。（汉乐府长歌行）　　56、疾风知劲草，岁寒见后凋。（后汉书王霸传）　　57、失之东隅，收之桑榆。（后汉书冯异传）　　58、精诚所至，金石为开。（后汉书广陵思王荆传）　　59、贫贱之知不可忘，糟糠之妻不下堂。（后汉书宋弘传）　　60、志士不饮盗泉之水，廉者不受嗟来之食。（后汉书）　　61、老骥伏枥，志在千里；烈士暮年，壮心不已。（三国曹操龟虽寿）　　62、山不厌高，海不厌深；周公吐哺，天下归心。（三国曹操短歌行）　　63、非学无以广才，非志无以成学。（三国诸葛亮诫子书）　　64、非淡泊无以明志，非宁静无以致远。（三国诸葛亮诫子书）　　65、勿以恶小而为之，勿以善小而不为。（三国刘备）　　66、国以民为本，民以食为天。（西晋陈寿三国志）　　67、盛年不重来，一日难再晨。（东晋陶渊明杂诗）　　68、不戚戚于贫贱，不汲汲于富贵。（东晋陶渊明五柳先生传）　　69、一年之计在于春，一日之计在于晨。（南朝萧铎）　　70、宁为玉碎，不为瓦全。（北齐书元景安传）　　71、当局者迷，旁观者清。（新唐书元行冲传）　　72、疾风知劲草，板荡识诚臣。（唐太宗赠萧禹）　　73、海内存知己，天涯若比邻。（唐王勃送杜少府之任蜀川）　　74、欲穷千里目，更上一层楼。（唐王之涣登鹳雀楼）　　75、黄沙百战穿金甲，不破楼兰终不还。（唐王昌龄从军行）　　76、清水出芙蓉，天然去雕饰。（唐李白论诗）　

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Synthesizing Education

FABLES OF AESOP

1.The good things and the bad things

The things brought by ill fortune, taking advantage of the feebleness of those brought by good fortune, pursued them closely. they went up to heaven and there asked zeus to tell them how they should behave with regard to men. zeus told them that they should present themselves to men not all together but only one at a time. and that is why the bad things, living near to men, assail them constantly, while the good things, who have to come down from the sky, only arrive at long intervals.

2. The man selling a holy statue

A man carved a wooden statue of the god hermes and carried it to the market to offer it for sale. but no buyer came along. so the man took it into his head to attract a buyer by crying out that he was selling a god who would provide both goods and profits. a passer by heard this and said to him: "Ha! Well, friend, if he is so beneficent, why are you selling him instead of making use of his help yourself?"
The merchant replied: "Oh, it isn't that. it is just that i need ready cash and the god is never in a hurry to render his services"

3. The eagle and the fox

An eagle and a fox, having become friends, decided to live near one another and be neighbours. they believed that this proximity would strengthen their friendship. so the eagle flew up and established herself on a very high branch of a tree, where she made her nest. and the fox, creeping about among the bushes which were at the foot of the same ree, made her den there, depositing her babies right beneath the eagle. But, one day when the fox was out looking for food, the eagle, who was very short of food too, swooped down to the bushes and took the fox cubs up to her nest and feasted on them with her own young. When the fox returned, she was less distressed at the death of her little ones than she was driven mad by frustration at the impossibility of ever effectively avenging herself. for she, a land animal could never hope to pursue a winged bird. she had no option but to content herself, in her powerlessness and feebleness, with cursing her enemy from afar. Now it was not long afterwards that the eagle did actually receive her punishment for her crime against her friend. some men were sacrificing a goat in the countryside and the eagle swooped down on the altar, carrying off some burning entrails, which she took up to her nest. a strong wind arose which blew the fire from the burning entrails into some old straw that was in the nest. the eaglets were singed and, as they were not yet able to fly, when they leaped from the nest they fell to the ground. the fox rushed up and devoured them all in front of the eagle's eyes.

Life advice

Some Very Good Advice
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. 3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. 4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. 5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. 7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. 8. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. 9. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. 10. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. 11. It's OK to let your children see you cry. 12. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 13. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. 14. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. 15. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. 16. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. 17. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 18. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. 19. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. (OK – NOT you guys) Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. 20. Over prepare, then go with the flow. 21. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. 22. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. 23. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?' 24. What other people think of you is none of your business. 25. Time heals almost everything. Give time time. 26. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 27. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. 28. Believe in miracles. 29. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 30. Your children get only one childhood. 31. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. 32. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. 33. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back. 34. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. 35. The best is yet to come.

Chinese

77、大鹏一日同风起，扶摇直上九万里。（唐李白上李邕）　　78、俱怀逸兴壮思飞，欲上青天揽明月。（唐李白宣州谢饯别校书叔云）　　79、仰天大笑出门去，我辈岂是蓬蒿人。（唐李白南陵别儿童入京）　　80、天生我材必有用，千金散尽还复来。（唐李白将进酒）　　81、长风破浪会有时，直挂云帆济沧海。（唐李白行路难）　　82、兴酣落笔摇五岳，诗成笑傲凌沧海。（唐李白江上吟）　　83、安能摧眉折腰事权贵，使我不得开心颜。（唐李白梦游天姥吟留别）　　84、读书破万卷，下笔如有神。（唐杜甫奉赠韦左丞二十二韵）　　85、会当凌绝顶，一览众山小。（唐杜甫望岳）　　86、笔落惊风雨，诗成泣鬼神。（唐杜甫寄本十二白二十）　　87、新松恨不高千尺，恶竹应须斩万竿。（唐杜甫）　　88、尔曹身与名俱灭，不废江河万古流。（唐杜甫戏为六绝句）　　89、今夜月明人尽望，不知愁思落谁家。（唐王建十五夜望月）　　90、谁言寸草心，报得三春晖。（唐孟郊游子吟）　　91、大凡物不得其平则鸣。（唐韩愈送孟东野序）　　92、蚍蜉撼大树，可笑不自量。（唐韩愈调张籍）　　93、业精于勤荒于嬉，行成于思而毁于随。（唐韩愈进学解）　　94、晴空一鹤排云上，便引诗情到碧霄。（唐刘禹锡秋词）　　95、沉舟侧畔千帆进，病树前头万木春。（唐刘禹锡酬乐天扬州初逢）　　96、千淘万漉虽辛苦，吹尽狂沙始到金。（唐刘禹锡浪淘沙）　　97、山不在高，有仙则名；水不在深，有龙则灵。（唐刘禹锡陋室铭）　98、谈笑有鸿儒，往来无白丁。（唐刘禹锡陋室铭）　　99、同是天涯沦落人，相逢何必曾相识。（唐白居易琵琶行）　　100、在天愿作比翼鸟，在地愿为连理枝。（唐白居易长恨歌）　　101、天长地久有时尽，此恨绵绵无绝期。（唐白居易长恨歌）　　102、试玉要烧三日满，辨材须待七年期。（唐白居易放言）　　103、曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云。（唐元稹离思）　　104、年年岁岁花相似，岁岁年年人不同。（唐刘希夷）　　105、醉卧沙场君莫笑，古来征战几人回！（唐王翰凉州词）　　106、黑发不知勤学早，白首方悔读书迟。（唐颜真卿）　　107、采得百花成蜜后，为谁辛苦为谁甜。（唐罗隐蜂）　　108、十年磨一剑，霜刃未曾试。（唐贾岛剑客）　　109、谁知盘中餐，粒粒皆辛苦。（唐李绅悯农）　　110、男儿何不带吴钩，收取关山五十州。（唐李贺南国）　　111、春蚕到死丝方尽，蜡炬成灰泪始干。（唐李商隐无题）　　112、身无彩凤双飞翼，心有灵犀一点通。（唐李商隐无题）　　113、相见时难别亦难，东风无力百花残。（唐李商隐无题）　　114、庄生晓梦迷蝴蝶，望帝春心托杜鹃。（唐李商隐锦瑟）　　115、历鉴前朝国与家，成由勤俭败由奢。（唐李商隐）　　116、桐花万里丹山路，雏凤清于老凤声。（唐李商隐）　　117、海阔凭鱼跃，天高任鸟飞。（唐僧云览）　　118、剪不断，理还乱，是离愁，别是一番滋味在心头。（五代李煜乌夜啼）　　119、昨夜西风凋碧树，独上高楼，望尽天涯路。（五代晏殊蝶恋花）　　120、先天下之忧而忧，后天下之乐而乐。（宋范仲淹岳阳楼记）　　121、残雪压枝犹有桔，冻雷惊笋欲抽芽。（宋欧阳修戏答元珍）　　122、忧劳可以兴国，逸豫可以亡身。（宋欧阳修伶官传序）　　123、祸患常积于忽微，而智勇多困于所溺。（宋欧阳修伶官传序）　　124、月上柳梢头，人约黄昏后。（宋朱淑真生查子）　　125、衣带渐宽终不悔，为伊消得人憔悴。（宋柳永凤栖梧）　　126、兼听则明，偏信则暗。（宋司马光资治通鉴）　　127、由俭入奢易，由奢入俭难。（宋司马光训俭示康）　　128、鉴前世之兴衰，考当今之得失。（宋司马光资治通鉴）　　129、循序而渐进，熟读而精思。（宋朱熹读书之要）　　130、问渠哪得清如许，为有源头活水来。（宋朱熹观书有感）　　131、不畏浮云遮望眼，只缘身在最高层。（宋王安石登飞来峰）　　132、看似寻常最奇崛，成如容易却艰辛。（宋王安石）　　133、荷尽已无擎雨盖，菊残犹有傲霜枝。（宋苏轼冬景）　　134、不识庐山真面目，只缘身在此山中。宋苏轼题西林壁）　　135、旧书不厌百回读，熟读深思子自知。（宋苏轼）　　136、博观而约取，厚积而薄发。（宋苏轼）　　137、但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。（宋苏轼水调歌头）　　138、人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺。（宋苏轼水调歌头）　　139、生当作人杰，死亦为鬼雄。（宋李清照夏日绝句）　　140、物是人非事事休，欲语泪先流。（宋李清照五陵春）　　141、莫道不销魂，帘卷西风，人比黄花瘦。（宋李清照醉花阴）　　142、花自飘零水自流，一种相思，两处闲愁。（宋李清照如梦令）　　143、两情若是久长时，又岂在朝朝暮暮。（宋秦观鹊桥仙）　　144、山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村。（宋陆游游山西村）　　145、僵卧孤村不自哀，尚思为国戍轮台。（宋陆游十一月四日风雨大作）　　146、位卑未敢忘忧国，事定犹须待阖棺。（宋陆游病起书怀）　　147、纸上得来终觉浅，绝知此事要躬行。（宋陆游冬夜读书示子聿）　　148、古人学问无遗力，少壮功夫老始成。（宋陆游）