2012 Lunar new year~

It has been a long time since my last post.
I decided to blog every day from this year , 2012, the historical moment finally arrived.
During my stay in korea, i finished master's degree and have already began to run my own business from this year, one year after my graduation.
My mother just went back to asan where she is working as a babysitter now. 4 days break from work gave mom and me a leisure time. We prepared food for the festival , which cost mom a lot^^ festival is for the family being together. although we could not go back home with brother and father, we spent lots of time chatting online with father, brother and sister in law. Hera adds lots fun to our life.
i would like to post some photos.

Stages

Stages

Stages

Stages
Monsoon is here. i am living in a small room with my lovely puppet - named Hera. She is a little baby of 3months old. I love her a lot and she needs constant attention and love from me. She hates to be alone at home while i am working in the office daylight. Usually i like to walk her around after i am back home. She jumps like little rabit here and there, eating grasses and flowers. But i could not take her out recently because of the rain. i worry about her catching cold if get wet. Every day i can not wait to go back to see my Hera, who will swag her little tail to show her happiness and run around me. i feed her twice a day, no lunch for her. because i can not go back to feed her in the afternoon. But if i gave her too much food in the morning, she would just eat up all at once and pooph a lot. She has a round white belly because i overfed her in the beginning. She likes to eat and eat.
The most exciting moment is when she understood what i said in words. When i said "Sit!" She understands and sits in front of me elegantly, looking at me with her pitious eyes. Since now "Sit"is the first and also the only word she understands, but i am trying to teach her more and train her into the most lovely doggie in the world.

School

Have you ever been so weak when you wake up in the morning?

This morning i woke up around 9: 30 and dragged myself to school. i felt very weasy. i handed my thesis to professor Kim soyan . i should give it to Pro. Yi yinku but he is not at school. he is the only hope that can help me through at the last moment.
God Bless me.

Suffocating

Have you ever cried alone in the night because of the darkness?

There is no more space for anything in my head besides the Blues... my Thesis topic. I never expected i would suffer so much mentally in korea. i wish i had never been here. Although next week is the festival week, it can not be more oppressive for me. Those days whenever i saw the christmas tree, my heart beats too fast. i am nervous. i am afraid. i fear. i struggle.
it has been a long time since i wrote on my blog. it was almost deserted till this moment. this moment is very dark. it is midnight. i can not fall into sleep. i fear tomorrow will be the same as today no improve... life is so long for me...
i wish i could die peacefully forever...
also i fear the life after death, the unknown world makes me feel more upset.
tears in the night, alone

Last year This moment

The old pictures
I think i am getting old fast, especially mentally. i found myself looking at the old pictures and missing someone. it was a really precious period for me in my life, thought it is finished now. i have, so no regrets. today i went to school and saw Alam, who also reminded me of someone else. i enjoyed the short talk with him. he is busy with his experiment, and he published something about neno on the journal. congratulations to him. i am busy writing the paper.
i miss the mid summer nights,
tears mingled in the lights
sweet flower shed
in the moon light... forever
Good bye , no never say goodbye,
goodbye kills the hope to meet again... the train station, the blue car...

Nothing sways the stupid more than arguments they can't understand.

After The Winter Vacation- Shagging Off
i came back to school after spending 1month in china. staying home was quite cozy , yet sometimes i became to miss Korea. many friends said Korea was small and bad. in my opinion, it doesn't sound necessarily, actually Korea was a nice place to live. at least the weather was much better, mild winter and sleety spring, carrying the sweetness of summer not far away. sitting in the room alone, listening to the rhythm of rain outside the window, typing on the board. although ii could not change the past, i still have hope. this semester will be rather busy but i will keep on to write on this lovely blog. Hyanghua's adventure in Korea. i love it. i miss my old friends in korea, who were living their life in their passionate way.