School

Have you ever been so weak when you wake up in the morning?

This morning i woke up around 9: 30 and dragged myself to school. i felt very weasy. i handed my thesis to professor Kim soyan . i should give it to Pro. Yi yinku but he is not at school. he is the only hope that can help me through at the last moment.
God Bless me.

Suffocating

Have you ever cried alone in the night because of the darkness?

There is no more space for anything in my head besides the Blues... my Thesis topic. I never expected i would suffer so much mentally in korea. i wish i had never been here. Although next week is the festival week, it can not be more oppressive for me. Those days whenever i saw the christmas tree, my heart beats too fast. i am nervous. i am afraid. i fear. i struggle.
it has been a long time since i wrote on my blog. it was almost deserted till this moment. this moment is very dark. it is midnight. i can not fall into sleep. i fear tomorrow will be the same as today no improve... life is so long for me...
i wish i could die peacefully forever...
also i fear the life after death, the unknown world makes me feel more upset.
tears in the night, alone

Last year This moment

The old pictures
I think i am getting old fast, especially mentally. i found myself looking at the old pictures and missing someone. it was a really precious period for me in my life, thought it is finished now. i have, so no regrets. today i went to school and saw Alam, who also reminded me of someone else. i enjoyed the short talk with him. he is busy with his experiment, and he published something about neno on the journal. congratulations to him. i am busy writing the paper.
i miss the mid summer nights,
tears mingled in the lights
sweet flower shed
in the moon light... forever
Good bye , no never say goodbye,
goodbye kills the hope to meet again... the train station, the blue car...

Nothing sways the stupid more than arguments they can't understand.

After The Winter Vacation- Shagging Off
i came back to school after spending 1month in china. staying home was quite cozy , yet sometimes i became to miss Korea. many friends said Korea was small and bad. in my opinion, it doesn't sound necessarily, actually Korea was a nice place to live. at least the weather was much better, mild winter and sleety spring, carrying the sweetness of summer not far away. sitting in the room alone, listening to the rhythm of rain outside the window, typing on the board. although ii could not change the past, i still have hope. this semester will be rather busy but i will keep on to write on this lovely blog. Hyanghua's adventure in Korea. i love it. i miss my old friends in korea, who were living their life in their passionate way.

Driving License

after 3 weeks hard work, i finally got the driving license in Korea. but still it was very hard to drive free as others on the busy road. taking driving exam was much more nervous than i expected and my legs were trembling uncontrollably. ends well all is well. this year was kind of busy till the end. the lunar spring festival in china is coming together with the valentine's day, kind of later than usual. i felt time was too limited from my graduation. my parents and bother were expecting me to go back for the festival but i was not quite in the mood. both money and time became the top problem now. suffering seemed to be my close friends now. not one step is easy for me, while for others everything seemed very smooth. i need to have a fulfilled winter vacation and also a good preparation for next semester though the situation did not seem to be optimistic.

Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative.

Merry Christmas!
i enjoyed the atmosphere of Christmas though i am not christian or it is so commercial. since last week i attended driving class in an academy and today i took the license exam on paper. for this exam i got up 5: 30 am , going over the practice questions, though 20 minutes later i fell into sleep again till 7: 30. after eating a morning apple, i hurried down to take the bus from the academy, 8:05 sharp. it was there standing by. there were many people taking the exam today, old and young people. by a seemingly touring bus, we were taken to a place named "young xin" it took us one hour to the destine and after some red and black stamps, finally we went into the room arranged neatly by computer for exams. as a foreigner i needed to show both the passport and ID card. we were required to choose from 4 choices, totally 40 questions within 40 minutes. at the first glance, the questions seemed to be very ambiguous. i was confused a lot. but after finishing once, i looked over again composedly. i changed several choices after serious consideration. finally i finished all and pushed the ending button. 92.5 points. my god... i got 92.5 out of 100 points. 70 points is enough to pass so i wasted 22.5 points^^ later i got to know there were 2 people failed among us. anyway, i felt relieved after this exam. from tomorrow i needed to practice driving and also another exam is waiting for me. a little hard to drive the truck but it was great fun when it moved driven by me... i could drive before long^^ happy . though it was christmas, no special schedule. no idea completely.

"Let us take things as we find them: let us not attempt to distort them into what they are not. We cannot make facts. All our wishing cannot change th

"Let us take things as we find them: let us not attempt to distort them into what they are not. We cannot make facts. All our wishing cannot change them. We must use them." - Cardinal Newman