I don't have any solution, but I certainly admire the problem.

i finished my last paper today, but still wanted one more finishing touch. maybe tomorrow the idea will come up. this semester was almost done and everyone was planning about their wonderful long winter vacation. it would last 2 months until next march. the long vacation is the only one i am satisfied with the Korea education system so far. the school was just so so, the friends were just so so, the professors were just so so, everything was just so so. honestly, i do not care much about this kind of school who accepted me as a graduate student. the education made me like a robot, That's the reason they're called lessons ... because they lessen from day to day. i thought i would be feeling light when i finished the papers, but when i did that, it was not as exciting as i expected. the reality was just as dry and frozen as the fallen leaf in the snow. yet the days ahead should be full of expectations to me. the problem is that my future would not what it used to be. i lay on bed, watching TV, eating any food at hand and all that i needed to do was breathing and enjoying my comfortable life at home. but this time it would be very much different in the ways i pass my vacation. it would be tiring but hopefully it would be meaningful both in mind and economy. when i was young i thought money was important , now i am growing old, and i know it is.