i am almost fainting from the big treat of reality
The road was sobbing and i was melting
The road was sobbing and i was melting
with the sorrow snow
today is a melting day. after a faint snow yesterday, it was melting here and there on the road. i had brunch myself on my way to dorm. it tasted bland because it was a lonely meal. my heart was melting along with the snow. exactly, it was sobbing sadly. the road was sobbing for my miserable life. the snow angel came down for my unfair treatment from the superior highly above me. i am unhappy, so very unhappy. i am unhappy because the love around me, the love in the hearts of those i cared for most, was beginning to shrivel and wither away. and this, in turn, made my own heart begin to grow in order to make up for the love that was disappearing around me. and the more the love in the hearts of those around me shriveled up, the bigger my own heart grew in order to make up for the growing emptiness that i now began to feel. so the love kept withering away and my heart kept growing bigger. until one day there was so little love around me and my own heart so big-------it burst into a thousand red petals that filled the sky and fell slowly, so very slowly, to the earth. and the people, my friends, the ones who had withheld their love, began to swallow the petals, these remains of the man's glorious heart as they fell from the sky. hungrily, they fed. greedily they swallowed. they pushed and shoved each other, gorging themselves on these petals because they felt then, they too, would become like me....lonely, unhappy...
Faintly, i went to the school for my paper, i met the professor after hanging outside waiting for his class over. he was a interesting person, like a man walking in the dream , closing the eyes waiting for the elevator. somehow my appearance shocked him from his daily dream. smelling broadly, he asked about my life politely and i answered him more politely. and he was very surprised for my quite early paper for others were still not done. anyway he was delightfully accepting my paper for him and taking my cellphone no. he said he would introduce some part time job, but i never expect highly from him. because i know he was just being polite.
my life sucks, because i still have one more paper to finish. i hate my life .
today is a melting day. after a faint snow yesterday, it was melting here and there on the road. i had brunch myself on my way to dorm. it tasted bland because it was a lonely meal. my heart was melting along with the snow. exactly, it was sobbing sadly. the road was sobbing for my miserable life. the snow angel came down for my unfair treatment from the superior highly above me. i am unhappy, so very unhappy. i am unhappy because the love around me, the love in the hearts of those i cared for most, was beginning to shrivel and wither away. and this, in turn, made my own heart begin to grow in order to make up for the love that was disappearing around me. and the more the love in the hearts of those around me shriveled up, the bigger my own heart grew in order to make up for the growing emptiness that i now began to feel. so the love kept withering away and my heart kept growing bigger. until one day there was so little love around me and my own heart so big-------it burst into a thousand red petals that filled the sky and fell slowly, so very slowly, to the earth. and the people, my friends, the ones who had withheld their love, began to swallow the petals, these remains of the man's glorious heart as they fell from the sky. hungrily, they fed. greedily they swallowed. they pushed and shoved each other, gorging themselves on these petals because they felt then, they too, would become like me....lonely, unhappy...
Faintly, i went to the school for my paper, i met the professor after hanging outside waiting for his class over. he was a interesting person, like a man walking in the dream , closing the eyes waiting for the elevator. somehow my appearance shocked him from his daily dream. smelling broadly, he asked about my life politely and i answered him more politely. and he was very surprised for my quite early paper for others were still not done. anyway he was delightfully accepting my paper for him and taking my cellphone no. he said he would introduce some part time job, but i never expect highly from him. because i know he was just being polite.
my life sucks, because i still have one more paper to finish. i hate my life .
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