The Big Welcome Feast for My First Winter Vacation in Korea
The only thing I can't stand is discomfort.
Who should i thank and who to blame? it is the circulation of my own short thought, a slip in my mind wretched both physically and mentally, which was so frustrating.
my big project for saving some money from the winter dorm charge, moving out and inhabiting in the most shabby house i had ever seen in my life. dragging a very heavy luggage and transferring through several subways were not easy for a person like me. i am not strong enough to bear all the burden on my shoulder all by myself. while a save in the wrong time wasted nine or more invisibly. i hurt a lot from this transferring. i wish i had no relatives who bothered me in all kinds of ways. it was more helpless than just bothering. it was so disappointing to live in a home with no equipment of anything but a shabby TV and a bed. no showering room and no Internet, so it was a hopelessly useless space. despite of my ants unexpected and unpleasant reaction, i just moved out of the room after a night's miserable time in that miserable room, which was cold and wet and smelly. it was so smelly...i was having serious headache from the unbearably strange smell webbing in the old air. like a corpse was buried in this dark room even the sun was high above outside. the room was still that ghostly vague and dark.
i never thought my saving money project was so over and i had to drag my heavy body again back to the dormitory. though i was completely exhausted from moving and thinking about the trifles, the thought of coming back to the old dorm again gave me strength and helped me to move on.
i never expected the evening party was a farewell to my dorm life too , until then i realized my life was so simple after all the torture. while simple was the key. simple and clear mind were the base of my right move. i moved to the wrong direction. instead of saving any money, i wasted physically and financially. '
suddenly a sentence came to my mind, think before act is rethink, act before think is reaction. i should use my instinct but not the stupid reaction.
i am feeling rebirth, it was a new life for me to settle down in my old room and with my old friend together again. this was the way life going, after all the struggling, we came back to the original point in track. the track for me was set,i need to follow the rest track.
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