Pure mathematics is, in its way, the poetry of logical ideas. One seeks the most general ideas of operation which will bring together in simple, logic

The most time of my holiday was spent with my family, watching TV. my mom and i had been holding onto the Korean program named"the seduce of wife" which was very popular now. the plot was complicated with the emotional rippling of several women and men. love, jealousy, betrayal, rich, poor, death , life ,trap, hatred and revenge composed the main themes of this seduce of wife. somehow it was attracted to us. the contrast between the heavenly angel and the most evil devil from hell had probably presented the truest real society. yet sometimes the reality was more mythical and complicating.

i slept away my afternoon time and my mom was cooking a mushroom and chicken soup for us. the soup was awesome and i had two bowls.

The wedding

i attended a wedding of my mother's friend where i met Xianglian and i spent the whole afternoon at her home chatting and laughing. but she was leaving for Beijing tonight 11 30 pm on train.

there was too much guests almost busted the comparatively too small wedding hall. the groom was once my childhood buddy now became someone's husband which meant more responsiblity and less freedom.

the luch was so sufficent but not really delicious in my opinion.

but the time spent with my old friend in the afternoon was wonderful!

old friendship forever in this new year

i have been a little bit lazy in terms of blogging, that is what we call vacation.
i spent most my time in resting myself. when i was awake and alive with a new day , with the morning sunshine through the window, i received a call from one of my primary friends , named Xianglian whose name was exactly the same with me but the last character.
we shared the same primary school and same middle school and before we were enrolled into different university we even spent the high school time together. so it was a childhood friend and a friend forever. once her grandmother and my grandmother were good friend to each other but both of our kind grandmother passed away several years ago. not building a good plan , i was so excited with my friend's visiting call. she would come very soon today. i washed up and brighten my face up with the ignored makeups for a long time. fully dressed up, looking at the clock , it was around 3 pm. knock knock, i sprang up to the door and opened the door swiftly. my friend shew up from the corner of the stairs and big smiles were exchanged from us. i could not wait to drag her into my room and warm up our talk show. once upon a time we met every day in the same classroom for 12 years of compulsory education system of china, but now we grew up and had to run for our own life everywhere on earth, and sometimes i even wanted to run into earth for living.

besides her there were several other old friends waiting for us in the old place "A B C " Coffee shop. we gathered there and went for new year party. same old , same old. but something changed that i could not say clearly. but one thing i was feeling strongly was the old friendship never diminished but grew deeply with the time rolls on.
one of them i had not met for 10 years who was once famous for good singer. after 10 years he was married and becoming a father of a 2 months son and a successful businessman in Beijing.

we toasted to each other and the party was cheered deep into 12 pm . we just wish this night never ended. someone has been success, someone is on the way, but in this reunion, we were ignorant and naive like old friends. as pure as the purest hot milk.

Marge, don't discourage the boy! Weaseling out of things is important to learn. It's what separates us from the animals! Except the weasel.

Chinese new year!

i was really starting to miss my birthplace which is also my grandmother's home after 3 days family reunion struggling there when i was on my way back home.
year by year the people was shrieking into a very small group which turned out to be only my family and several cousins passing the most important time of a year. when i was young the whole room was filled with lots of people but now it was a little quiet. most of the family members were spread out all over for their own life home and abroad.
so as the kitchen leader of us, my mom , together with 3 soldiers prepared a heart of food for the rest of eaters, my brother, my daddy and myself who were lazy and ignorant of cooking.

from the new year eve through the new year and to the second day of 2009, the leader and soldiers took good care of us free people.
there was fish , chicken, pork, beef and all kinds of fresh vegetables fried and stewed . during those festival time, we did nothing but eating and watching TV all day long deep into night.
the program was the highlight of our entertainment. for this year, the most attractive was acted by the old star, zhao ben shan at the end of the program. a flush of laughter burst out continuously.
this morning we said goodbye to my grandmother and came back home. i was so happy to go home but just when i looked out of the window , all of sudden , it was like a world in the crystal , so shinning.

the lunar new year

it was a very early morning for me to wake up this morning and then followed breakfast and not knowing what to do next.
it was the end of the last year and the start of a very important festival in china. mom and daddy were as busy as two bees which gave me a very intense mood. i have no idea of the point of waking up so early and becoming so nervous. it was a tradition for our family to go grandmother's home every lunar new year eve. when i was young i counted on my fingers for this festival because i could have new clothes and money. but now i grew up and there was no fun for this day as no clothes and no excitement and no one gave me money instead i should give others.
it seemed that the traditional festival is no more than a big trouble and bother for me. i just got new year money from my mom! thanks mom , it is very generous of u ! my ~

i think new year is exciting!

I bear no grudges. I have a mind that retains nothing.

i sneaked out of the room in the quiet night yesterday and this morning i was found out by my parents in the sleeping bag on the sofa. it was very practical to be in the sleeping bag when there was not enough space for four people in a limited rooms. as my brother came home, i must in the sleeping bag. it was very interesting to sleep in the bag and i could feel the snug sleeping bag warmth.
in the middle of the day i went out with my daddy for the fax to my school in Korea for the credit application matter. the coldness was appalling and it took almost 20 minutes to cover the slippery road to the computer room where i could send a fax to Korea.
i dialed the no. but no one answered so i gave up to call my friends instead. he was one of my classmates and a short conversation cost me a large mount of money. it was really expensive to make an international call in china. but in Korea we Chinese could call china by a very economic phone card which is really helping us to save a lot of communication money. the other day i called Korea with the home cellphone unfortunately it was found out by my mother who scolded me to death for the irresponsible selfish unkind behaviour. since then i never dared to call expensive far distant calling any more.
after the fax thing my daddy and i picked up my mother at the corner of the back road of our town for more lunar new year shopping. before long the van was filled with a big bump of vegetables, fruits and drinks.

when we went back home it was already dinner time. my brother was busy about the Friends party thing and the dinner was left for my mom and me to deal with simply. my daddy was driving for the countryside to my grandmother's home. yet just at the dinner time around 5 pm, i received a call from my cousin who invited me for dining out. i knew the reason as my another cousin's birthday. honestly i was not eager to go out in such a cold winter. even it was a good weather i always like to stay home. staying home was my great hobby. home is coazy. so i let them come to my home and have dinner with me. they came together with my daddy from the village and my mom did cook a sufficient food for us. it was a birthday celebration without the birthday cake. as my cousins planned they could not wait to go out for more birthday party fun. the next destination was the Kara okay. my parents also wanted to enjoy us. it had been the second time to go Kara okay with my parents within one week. the last time was on my birthday we went singing after dinner.
despite of the crazy cold weather we marched to sing. the low temperature could not stop our high spirits for fun. actually my mom was a little reluctant to go out but my daddy was very excited to be part of us so my mom was forced by him.
i was really not a good singer and dancer. but i did enjoy with them. one of my cousin was really good at entertainment.
but her boyfriend was the opposite of her who was as shy as a girl. he barely sung one song for my daddy insisted. and my mom was a microphone holder queen. no one could stop her from singing. she takes singing as a way of relaxing from the daily stress.
i was feeling that she was singing out the bad things by the notes .
around 9 pm we ended the party and reluctantly and pitifully, my cousins were driven home by my bored father. my daddy was a very worse singer.
tomorrow is the end of the passing 2008 year and also as the start of another new year, i hope my cousins would have more fun.
Happy New Year!

"Love is to feel what the other is feeling even if they are far away." Barak

At the approaching of the lunar new year

after eating up a whole birthday dinner yesterday, i grew up a little more this morning and threw up a lot as a great celebration farewell to my 24 years.
officially i am 25 now. scientifically proved that a woman would meet the physical down slope at the very age of 25 and it is another period for a lady also mentally definitely.
i struggled a lot for the wrong food this morning and the whole day i just felt dizzy and strenghthless. not much reading as i planned and not much enjoying of my life home. yet in the evening, all of my cousin came for a visit. two of them just came back from Beijing for the traditional Chinese lunar new year. they were 2 years younger than me but much mature than me emotionally. we were too happy to say anything in detail but keep laughing as the warmest welcome expression. all of the sudden the whole room was filled with energy and fresh. i was stuck home for several days without any fresh air. it was so grateful of them to take some fresh air for me.
we talked and talked until the dinner time , which my mom prepared simply for short of time for more preparation. it was a big pleasant surprise, obviously this surprise was different from my surprise coming from Korea secretly.
we had a most pleasant family talk with the simplest food. being together is enough for the closest relations and everything seemed to be right.
talk talk talk girls just like talking a lot. they broke the silent and slow of my life and i had enjoyed this precious reunion once a year.
the day after tomorrow we would go to my grandmother's home and pass the festival time together.
and in the late night my brother came back from shanghai too. but he was busy seeing off to his friend not even having time to say hello to us , hurrying off to the train station again only leaving the luggage home. at this point my parents seemed a little upset. their dear son was so busy that ignored the family easily.

whose fault

Life gives me real headache
---------------------------------The whispering fish
lentil soup was great especially in this season of cold winter home. my mom cooked for me and it was different taste when in different situation. i am not exchanging with something cheap.
everyone in china was busy preparing for the approaching lunar new year. my mom said the town market was buzzing with people hunting for lions. so was my family.
today my brother was coming back from shanghai for this great traditional festival for family reunion. it seemed to be yesterday when i seriously quarreled with him for my unknown future in shanghai. after some terrible struggle tinted with hopeless tears, i realize my dream in Korea. it is not my fault to be fired from my former deen and failed in the boring exam, i was having other roads to take. god knows where i should go. anyway the present is precious because as someone said yesterday was history and tomorrow was mystery.
about the history one of my professor emphasized on the his and story, which was so so childish and superficial. we are not primary school students and he should not tell us something like that.
he should say something about the Greek philosophy like Plato or Aristotle.
my daddy bought two huge fish for us yesterday and he just put the smaller one in the basin. he said"oh , it is still living, should i kill it right now?" my, does it make any difference killing it now or later? what is the meaning of life for a fish? maybe the fish did not die for my daddy's laziness. he left the job to my mom, which meant the fortunate fish had one more night live but not survive. in the late night, after some reading i went to the bathroom and saw that fish. it was as calm as a very mild lamb , bubbling in rhythm. i was sorry to see her hopeless eyes opening blah blah~ bubbling. she could not close the eyes out of anger. she was mute. but her fate was doomed regardless of her mute. silent was useless. this morning i heard my daddy slaughtered the final struggling fish for life. she was struggling at last out of fear or faith? i know i am going to have a big feast very soon.
welcome back home ~ brother!

plan for this vacation

i have a very detail plan for my life home now. a little more learn about history and about phylosophy. plan is only meaningful when it is carried out. i woke up 12 in the afternoon. and a simple shower together with the lunch. my mom said when i was home she was performing the role of servant for me. without me she was free to do anything, with me she was doing anything for free . LOL i am just lazy as a lady.

in the afternoon i went for my cousin's shop, who was running a small delicate accessory shop. the other reason i went out was to try on my new boots boots. i love my boots. it was really cold outside, the typical winter wether. smow was covering thickly everywhere and the air was so frozen but fresh. maybe the wether in nottheast here in jilin gave me a very strong and distinct character like the clearly devided four seasons. very hot summer and very cold winter. maybe i should go to my daddy's DNA who decided my personality somehow like my daddy.

my cousin gave me a pair of earrings and a ring whose the diamond on it could turn. i was very happy to have them as the welcome back gift? ^^ actually i just took her a small lipstick when i came back from korea. a little mean i think.

a new boots gave me a good mood although i was still feeling the cold in my toes gathered in the lovely boots.

the territory

previously i wanted to have some meaningful moves in Korea but i realized something and i changed my former ideas. a little more contact with my inner heart instead of my brain would probably make me stay but i think poor people would come home. because home is free for me. but my plan was not going as i expected. i just planned to give my dear parents a big surprise but it was so not fun at all in my case. i do not know what made them so worry about me. i love to be no bounce no responsibility no worry. the fortune teller told me that i was having a long healthy life, so my safety should not be an issue for my dear mythical mom, they almost called the police to capture me, the feeling of being worried in this way was not good. i wish i would be a drop of water, disappearing in the sun and attributing into sea secretly.
in family i would rather be ignored than be tortured like a prisoner. but sometime else ignoring would transfer into the most torturing thing. what should i call this case? it is kind of magical transfer.
home was sweet and warm for most harmonious family. me too. i love my cozy territory, my dear room my bed my desk my air. my parents seemed to be happy although a very simple welcome back dinner was not very expressive. i knew them so well that i did not highly expected their feast. they were so restrictive not expressive to me.

home is good. i am feeling sleepy after dinner , spring out my feet and waggling in bed sweet in dream. god bless me a dreamland home.