Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real.

Me Today

The Hall in Front of BUGAK BUIDING"A Black bird"


BUGAK Gate "pick me up after class"

This morning before the alarm , i was informed of morning class today cancelled and would be made up on Friday which meant i would have a black Friday instead. i had a late morning sleep until 12 pm and washed up and had 3 slices of cheese. i have no appetite for anything else. i feel autumn is there outside the window. the climate since yesterday was dropping down swiftly and I could even feel the winter is not far away from now. autumn? since summer is here , can winter be far away? midsummer nights' dream actually is breeding a waking hope for the winter. The Way to The Lab

Move to The Dorm Gate


I came back room after the class in the afternoon, the 2 hour's class passed without leaving slight trace behind, my heart was still unsettled from the missing piece. i could not concentrate on what the professor was murmuring about and looked like someone out of mind, numb face. i opened the PC to see if i can get contact from priyam, after several minutes, the precious name was rising up miraculously like a morning sun! the happy tears were welling up like a fountain. big tears strolling down in a chain of pearls. at least i know the tantrum is safely arriving home. i kept talking about how tough time i am having here in Korea, not caring about tantrum's feelings, i am such a selfish human being.
in the evening i went out for some grapes and leafs, on my way back, at the shortcut near kook min university i was scared by a shade standing in front of me. "hello" he said. i was listening to the MP3 and walking like a dreamer, "hello..." i could not believe priyam was in front of me...the same t shirt , same jeans, same color. i cleared my eyes trying to see more clearly. it turned out to be priyam's roommate. he was going to the market and he asked after priyam's home trip. maybe he wanted to comfort me by some words but i could not speak because i was choking tears back. just say hello and goodbye ^^
i had dinner with cheese rice and mango pickle and some chatting. in the night, lying in bed, i am grateful that i have survived the first day without tantrum. i am feeling my adventure in Korea is just in the very beginning...

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